strivingfor135

Hey all,

I made myself go to the gym today. I did 15 minutes on a stationary bike and walked 1/2 a mile. It’s not much, but the bike kicked my butt and I wanted to go easy on my feet since I still have the blister (it’s better, but still there). I’ve been doing pretty good with eating today. Breakfast: 2 eggs, 2 pieces of toast, 1/2 cup of pineapple; Snack: popcorn, orange juice; Lunch: 1/2 can of chef boy r dee lasagna, edamame, and for dinner: a bowl of chili. I need to go grocery shopping for healthier stuff, but I’m trying to make it as long as I can with what I have. I’m craving chocolate right now Stupid cravings.

Hey all,

I am really frustrated because I thought I have been doing so well besides the slip ups I mentioned yesterday, and yet I still haven’t lost an ounce. It sucks because I have changed my eating drastically from when I was at home which should make some difference and also from earlier before I went home. Ugh! I guess I’m just going to have to buckle down even more and be very strict which sucks because that’s not what I want to do the rest of my life! I want to be free to eat something in moderation and not fear that I am going to not lose anything just from one dinner out. :/

Last night was good. I didn’t do bad at the potluck. I didn’t go for seconds on anything except my dessert when I got home (which was bad lol). Other than that I ate pretty light all day, so I don’t know. I can’t exercise because of this blood blister on the bottom of my foot and I hope it heals soon. I know that is why I’m not losing is because I’m not exercising. I just know that’s the reason and I see it has highly unfair! lol Most people can change their eating habits and lose weight for a little while and then incorporate exercise…not me! :/

Anyways, enough ranting. I’m hoping for a good day.

Hey all,
I have been doing pretty well here lately with food. I had a few slip ups the past two days, but I’m trying not to sweat it. I ate dinner out Saturday night and could have made better choices, but I always feel like when I eat out I should splurge on something yummy! lol Will have to work on that Then Sunday I ended up eating out but I got a salad, but then I slipped up bad after that and ended up eating a doughnut and two bowls of ice cream :/ Anywho, I learned last night that even if someone else is eating it doesn’t mean I HAVE to have to some too. I also went for a 3 mile walk yesterday with some friends, and I got a blood blister on the bottom of my foot…so I will not be trying to do much exercise on it until it heals because it hurts! It’s feeling better today, but I really don’t want it gone. This also shows that I really really really need some good walking/running shoes. Therefore, I will be a slave to workout dvds or the elliptical and stationary bike at the gym instead of walking until I can afford new shoes because every time I walk I get the regular blisters, but this one was a wake up call at how much I needed new ones.

Tonight we are having a small potluck for our supervision group. We have three people bringing dips and chips, and me and another girl are going to bring a dessert, and then one girl is bringing cocktail weenies. I am excited! I am thinking that this will be my dinner. I am going to try and eat light during the day so that I can splurge a little bit tonight. My friends make some kick ass food! lol

Well I gotta start fixing my dessert for tonight so that it will be ready in time! I’m making this thing my friend calls a mud bar. It’s basically a big chocolate chip cookie in a baking dish with chocolate melted on top. I have to give it time to harden before tonight and I don’t want to stick it in the fridge because it tastes better room temperature. Yum! I can’t wait! I just hope they turn out good! Have a great day you guys!

Hey all,

I’ve been doing ALOT better at managing my meals and nutrition. I’m still not 100% at it, but compared to how I was..I’m doing great! lol I’m going to hit the gym tomorrow. I haven’t been in a LONG time, so I’m actually excited to go do something. I’m not working next week, just doing some school stuff, so I plan on getting in some time next week too. I’m excited! I think Fridays are going to be my regular weigh-in days if I remember. I haven’t been weighing regulary in a while since I’ve been gaining. It is too depressing. So..I gotta get back into the hang of doing it before breakfast lol Anyways, I’m gonna relax and watch some tv. Have a great night!

Hey all,

I haven’t lost any weight..instead I have gained, putting me at 250.8..4 lbs away from my highest weight ever. And it sucks. I’ve been having a rough few weeks because I broke up with my boyfriend, and I am depressed about that. I know it’s for the right reasons, but it is still difficult. However, not being with him anymore gives me the flexibility to eat whatever I want now. He was very picky, and so I adjusted my meals around what he would eat. So I was eating a lot of meat and starchy vegetables..and a lot of fried stuff. Not good. So now that he is gone and moved out, I am going to stick to eating healthier and less. So far today I have had a bowl of cereal with orange juice and some tootsie rolls (bad, but I only had four small ones). Lunch is going to be a frozen dinner and a banana because I just got back into town yesterday, and I’m sick so I did not feel like cooking anything for dinner. Dinner depending on how I feel when I get off work will be some chicken with mixed veggies  and a baked sweet potato or a sandwich.  I will start exercising as soon as I’m not feeling like I’ve been run over by a truck lol

I have been doing VERY badly yesterday and today. There is no excuse for it. I just did it. And now I feel icky. I don’t want today to be the start of a binge fest, so I have to get myself in the right mindset before I go home tomorrow because if I did bad today, home is ALWAYS the worst. My mom always has goodies and I’m always snacking. SOoooo…here is my plan for the time I am away…tomorrow I am going to eat breakfast before I leave then when I arrive home at 2:00 I might have me a little snack because dinner is always early (around 5). For dinner, I will eat a little bit of what my mom makes but paying attention to portion sizes and I will NOT go for a second plate. If I eat after dinner it will be a healthy snack. On Thanksgiving, I will not eat much at all until dinner…maybe a small breakfast and lunch then just have ONE plate at dinner and ONE dessert. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I will try to eat three regular meals with healthy snacks. I won’t deny myself a tiny bit of unhealthy stuff, but I refuse to not feel the pangs of hunger at home. I am usually full 24/7 while I’m home and it is such an unpleasant feeling. Oh! And I will continue to drink at least 64 oz of water a day. I’m going to take my water bottle with me that I use while I’m always here.

Hey,

Two blogs in one day! lol Actually I just talked to my mom today and we are going to my cousin’s house for Thanksgiving and she was going over what we were going to have. In the past, we hosted Thanksgiving at our house, but for the past three years my cousin has been hosting it. My mom still made our own turkey and dressing and some sides at our house though. I LOVE my mom’s cooking, so this year I just found out that she is not going to cook any Thanksgiving related food at our house this year. Granted…this is good for me since there will be no leftovers , I’m still a little sad about it! lol I’m also kinda disappointed in the Thanksgiving menu, but hey at least I won’t eat as much. So far what my mom has said is going to be on the menu is turkey, dressing & gravy, squash casserole, corn salad, and sweet potato casserole. If my cousin makes anything else, then we might have some extra. (I’m hoping for some green bean casserole or something!)  If this is the only stuff on the menu then I won’t have any squash casserole since this is one thing my mom makes that I don’t like and just a little taste of corn salad and then some of the turkey and dressing and sweet potato casserole. I KNOW KNOW this is a good thing, but I was really looking forward to Thanksgiving because it is when all my favorites are made  :( Oh well. I have a good reason to not overindulge! I am excited to see my family though My aunt is down from Arizona and I havent seen her in a year, and then I haven’t seen the rest of my family since August. And I get to see my God-daughter I hope! So I guess the important things that matter are going to be there, and therefore, I shouldn’t worry about if we are having my favorites or not.

Hey all,

The last few days have not been good nutritionally. I don’t know what’s going on with me, but the weekends are always bad for me. I go home Wednesday for a few days, and I have already planned to not let it be a free for all while I’m at home. I can’t gain anymore weight. I was working on a project the last few days were I have to watch myself on video during therapy sessions (I’m in school to be a marriage and family therapist), and while I was watching it hit me how I big I really am. To me when I look at myself in the mirror I don’t look that big, but in reality I am a lot bigger than what I see. It makes me realize what other people see. It is depressing. I just feel like I have to get this down by the time I graduate. I have been here for a year and a half lost 30 lbs and then gained it all back. And now I’m having trouble getting ONE pound off!

Idk. I’m just really down right now. I can’t afford to buy the things I want to eat and I can’t afford to make two separate dinners for me and my bf (he eats totally different). It’s hard this time around. There are so many other things that I have to maneuver around just to exercise or eat the way I need to eat. I know I need to take control and make this experience what I need it to be. I was thinking about every week buying two types of fruit to eat during the week to snack on and eat with meals and then some frozen veggies to eat with dinner instead of what my bf eats. Other than that I was thinking about eating the same thing for breakfast (oatmeal) and lunch (sandwich) throughout the week to cut down on costs. I like a lot of variety but I need to cut down on grocery costs alot. My bf may not like it but I was also thinking about having gnerally the same thing for dinner everynight. We don’t like eating vegetables we have had leftover so alot ends up in the trash which is such a waste. So I think it is time to start eating leftovers to save some money. Any other ideas?

Brittney: YES! I do not need to be around any unhealthy food. I always give in But this is going to change!

Today was not a good food day. I made a lot of bad choices. It has also been a very stressful day. I have been running around all day long and feeling like I never just got to RELAX! Now I’m at home and it is so so nice. I ate at a Chinese buffet place for lunch with my bf and his mom today, and I tried not to overstuff myself. I did over eat because I was still a bit uncomfortable when I left, but I decided to skip dessert (a first! lol) I realized though that if I eat a big lunch I don’t get hungry in the evening. I was not hungry at all for the next like eight hours! I did snack on dehydrated green beans which was strange, yet good. They were crispy and like chips. That could have been the reason I did not get hungry though lol Anyways, I’m going to enjoy my night relaxing and watching tv before going to bed

Hey all,

Yesterday was suppose to be a low calorie day. I had it alllll planned out. Breakfast was two hard boiled eggs with some pineapple slices, lunch was a chicken wrap with brussel sprouts, then a granola bar for a snack…maybe some crackers even, then two small eye of round steaks, corn, and boiled okra for dinner. Ohhh but then enter hello kitty cupcakes. UGH! lol I tried to only eat one but then I ate another So I had two. And a Mr. Pibb with lunch (this was before I knew about the cupcakes!) And ended up trading the okra for about 1/4 cup of mashed potatoes at dinner. *sighs* On the plus side, I did get 15 minutes of exercise in yesterday. Today, I’m not so sure what it entails….